"Stupid Deep"

Chad comes up to the front door of his ex, Sandy’s house. He's about the ring the doorbell but stops himself.

Chad: "What if who I hoped to be was always me?" Man, I should not have come unannounced. I shouldn’t be here.

Sandy peaks out the curtain, unseen by Chad. She watches with sadness and hope and moves behind the door.

Chad: What if… What if "the love I fought to feel was always free?" And it's not that I need Sandy's love. What if I just love her? What if…I shouldn't be here. "What if all the things I've done were just attempts at earning love?" That's not fair. Do I need Sandy or do I just want her to love me because that felt good. That's not fair, right? I want to see Sandy. No. I actually love her, "'cause the hole inside my heart is stupid deep."

Sandy on the other side of the door.

Sandy: Why is he being "stupid deep" now. Why couldn't he have known this months ago? Do I let him back in now? That's the question. My friends will hate me. They made so much fun of him. But I think I love him. I think I always have. That I always will?

Chad: "What if where I've tried to go was always here?"

Sandy: I can't. I need to leave this alone. If he rings the doorbell I won't answer. "The path I've tried to cut was always clear," but now I'm confused. I'm never confused.  I can't. Not this time. 

Chad:  When did this happen? "Why has life become a plan?" I need to prove myself this time. Show her it's different. Show Sandy that I'm here for her now. Should I "put some money in my hand" show her I can provide for her this time? There's only so much I need but I need her. What do I do "when the love I really need is stupid?" She's on the other side and I need to reach out to her.

Sandy: I feel "cheap… stupid cheap" right now. I can’t.

Sandy leaves to another room just as Chad rings the doorbell.

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