"The Wolf"

She is sitting in a coffee shop, in one of those big, comfy chairs. She’s sunk in it a bit. Next to her is a table and hard wooden chair. She’s sipping on coffee and has a large binder of homework in her lap.

She: What do I say to him? Here’s the thing. I want to be with him, I really do, but we’ve had this will they, won’t they thing going on for so long, that it’s weird… I want to start at 0 and not 60! Seriously it’s not his fault that he doesn’t know that I like him, but it was really intense last week. I should have been better at telling him that it wasn’t that I didn’t want him, it was that I didn’t know what to say. I took a week, “wide-eyed with a heart” full of questions and thinking about this conversation is “made full of fright.” 

She spots Him outside the windows. While he’s muttering to himself he spots her and walks over to her table.

Him: I can’t believe I’m such a dunce. What chance do I possibly have with her? (he looks at her watching him, right before he enters) “Your eyes follow” me as I come in. Maybe I do have a chance. Maybe this isn’t going to go as badly as I think it is… (getting to the table)

Hey…(pause) Can I sit here?

She: Of course. That’s kind of the point right?

Him: Um, so, have you been here long?

She: Not too long. I mean I was working on some homework about “tracers in the night,” but other than that…..

(collecting herself) Listen, I’m nervous. 

Him: Me too. How do you feel?

She: It’s like. I’m on “the tightrope that you wander” and then fall off “everytime.” The thing is, you keep getting up and trying again. Does that make sense.

Him: Yes, it does. I feel like I’ve “been weighed” and “been found wanting.”

She: It’s not that bad. We haven’t even spoken about what to do just yet. If it wasn’t semi-positive, I would have kept ignoring your texts. I just… I just needed some space to think about what’s best for me and what I want to happen. Whether that’s the same as you, well, I don’t know. 

Him: I’m just going to start. I’ve “been wondering for days how you felt.” You have to know that I like you. I have for years now.

She: Why not tell me? Did it “slip your mind” all those times we were on things that were like dates, but I was never really sure?

Him: No. 

She: Well?

Him: It’s more like I feel that even if in the best scenario we were to date or be boyfriend/girlfriend or whatever, you’ll inevitably “leave.” You’ll outgrow me.

She: Why are you hiding “behind your wanton ways?” You haven’t asked me what I wanted. Why do you think it’s over before it’s begun. No wonder we’ve never been on a real date.  

Him: So there’s a chance for us?

She: I don’t know. I mean I want there to be. You aren’t really helping your case though. I’m not a saint and you can’t put me on a pedestal of your own making. I’m a normal person who has feelings for what I’m hoping is another normal person.

Him: “I want to learn to love” you. I want to be with you for what is hopefully forever, but I doubt that’s the case because you’re amazing, and smart, and beautiful, and like I’m not the jam to your peanut butter. 

She: This is insane. I’m not so special. If I didn’t think you were worth it, I wouldn’t have continued our friendship or even be sitting in this chair right now. Why are you here right now?

Him: “‘Cause you were all I ever longed for.”

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